2/14
交給干干的卡片和德芙,祝她生日快樂。
不知道要如何與悲劇、宜芳和好,宜芳氣妳很久了。
妳,想通了嗎?不是妳,就別亂當。
Don't be the one never being you, or you're never yourself.
搞清楚妳是誰。
(那時候我高中的人際關係毀掉了,抱歉了朋友們。)
季芹還在氣我,沛涓說,只能讓時間解決,妳和她的橋樑會有再次建起的那天。
My problem is never ever being true to myself.
I'm angry with outside world, boiling that emotion and planting anguish in the depth of my brain.
I hate everyone around in some extreme way, and other days that makes me feel strongly regret.
Happiness for me just concept that I will never consider it out of the word it is.
I'm looking for it for my whole life and find nothing but depression.
我會對人好是因為我知道這對其他人多麼重要。
(Just)some people for me.
我只有哭。I'm just crying, sitting beside somebody. I knew I suppose to say something happened to me, what I face with. I do want to talk, but I just can't speak out, so I let my tears replace to the words that need to be spoken out, hoping that the world can stop for a while so that tears in front of my eyes won't fall to the ground.
傷心完(有結束過嗎?)就馬上說自己好了,這是催眠自己。
路途的前方沒有激川、懸岸和深谷,自己還是可以走過。
我蹲在地上,一旦馬上站起,就會頭昏眼花,站不住腳,還跌到了,摔得很重。
2/15
今天看了美國隊長、悲慘世界。
波普先生的企鵝中,有隻企鵝叫作隊長,但她是女生。
一整天都在台北這裡。
星期日把檔案(小插畫)上傳上去。
也許,說不定,只是種可能性,妳又會聽到什麼。
那不僅是妳察覺到、意識到。
妳突然了解到,也許會讓妳措手不及,妳因此分離。
2/16
妳心裡明白自己會遭遇什麼,一清二楚。
周圍的空氣不在妳的掌控內。
妳所享有的全然是和別人共享,卻毫無交集的,更沉重的氣氛。
妳已經在這樣的情勢下背負起有如兩好三壞,一、二壘有人,二人出局,身為一個投手,妳也許能夠控球,確保妳毫無失誤的投出那顆,打者不會預見的好球還是壞球,妳只要避免觸身球就行了。